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some doodle that I didn't finish


and another chibi


and another project for school

LOL it looks kind of creepy I think.
my assignment was to figure out a way to present an ordinary object in a way that would bring attention to it without actually altering the object in any way. sooo I'm presenting an earring. I made the ear out of Sculpey and it's painted with gouache. (Christ I use gouache all the freaking time now lmao I DON'T EVEN LIKE THAT STUFF.)
I'm pretty unhappy with how this turned out but I could not get my original idea to work at all so I'm just gonna have to go with this. I still have so much homework and I don't have time to stress over this project anymore.




I quit taking my medicine.
again.
aahaha.
Dad's mad at me and my doctor's mad at me and wow I do not care. I don't consider myself a particularly happy person even when I'm not on meds but something about anxiety meds make me so fucking sad that it's like, unbearable.
I tried, ok? I tried to deal with it. but it's like, my options are to either deal with anxiety or fucking kill myself from the depression that anxiety meds give me.
so they can be mad all they want but I think they'd be a lot more upset if I went with the alternative.
I'm happy with my decision and that's the important thing. it's my body, it's my mind, and I will be the one deciding whether or not I will take those meds. it's nobody else's decision to make.