god i am so lame for having a crush on this girl who will never in a thousand years like me back
i think this must be why i refused to have crushes on people for so long haha whenever i like someone it's always someone i don't stand even the slightest chance with so it's such a complete waste of time
at least i know better than to get too heartbroken over it by now
but it still sort of sucks
not in an oh-god-i'm-so-sad-i'm-going-to-cry-over-it sort of way
just an oh-well-that's-too-bad sort of way

i swear if i ever meet a girl i like that actually likes me back i will just die of shock