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ok well EMworks from dA has this huge deviation with chibi drawings of all her characters on it (here) and since I have so many characters I kinda wanted to try doing the same thing hahaha. it's gonna take me a while since I have approximately thirty billion characters so I might kinda work on this off and on, buut a lot of my characters have gone undrawn for so long that this will be a good way to get me drawing all of them.
since I have talked very little/not at all about some of my characters, if you guys have questions about them you can feel free to ask in comments as I post them.

today I drew Sugar High characters.




it's been soo long since I've drawn some of them ahahaha. I'm not even sure if I've ever posted a drawing of Lauren before.

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oh god I have so many drawings LOL. putting them under the cut because there's approximately two trillion of them.

monotonous

Sugar.

Ughhhhh. So much homework haha :( But I am sooo close to being done with English, and I'm pretty sure I can test out of Intro Art, so hopefully my work load is going to continuously decrease after the next couple of weeks. Just gotta deal with this current influx of homework.

LOL god, school is like, all I ever post about anymore. It's totally eating up all of my time, so I have nothing else to talk about 8(

day 5

Day 05 → My favorite quote is...
"Live and let live." I hate when people try to tell me what religion to believe, or how to live, or whatever. It's just disrespectful to me. I think everyone should respect each other enough to leave their beliefs alone. Live life to the fullest, and let other people do so as well; don't judge them for how they decide to live.

Couple of doodles from a short oC session with Nimi.

Sugar.


Incubus kid. I can't believe I still haven't decided on a name for him lmfao.

Anywayy..
Today was really bad lol :( I don't want to get into it, but ugh it just wasn't good. I'm worn out.

brrrrrr.

It's cold in here.

Couple of doodles from an oc session with Nimi.


Zero.


Lala.


D: He still doesn't have a name.

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Sugar.

Uhh... Well I guess I have nothing to say. D8 Today was really frickin boring.

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YESSS. They put Salsitas in the vending machine downstairs!
So of course, I had to buy a ton of them.

LOL.

ANYWAY oc session with Nimji yay 8D


super uke Elk :<
lol this conversation while I was drawing this...
[panimi] i've always wanted to see what aromatic grass looks like :<
[aummy] XD me too
[panimi] because i keep imagining it as a weed plant ;_;
[aummy] I bet it's weed :<
LMAO WE SAID IT AT THE SAME TIME... :( we're weirdos.


Halcyonnn. I've been feeling really bad about neglecting him so much lately, haha...


Halcyon's... uhh, fiancé? haha :< Maybe someday I'll draw them together...
Anyway, this character is Audrey's (I think she decided to name him Augustin? Augustine? idk), and Halcyon is mine.


Lala being depressing, as usual :< HOW CAN HE BE SO SAD ALL THE TIME!? HE'S GOT HOT PINK HAIR. If I had pink hair, I'd be in a good mood all the time :<


Julien. lol lazy swords


LOL Nimi made me draw Trois in normal clothes. Doesn't look like him at all, hahaha. Even in normal clothes, he doesn't look very normal... I mean, how often do you see a guy with hair down to the floor? 8(

bleh

idk just doodling

Lala.


Sugar. This one was done at this site and then I went over the lines in SAI.

My assignment from Shannon was to read The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz...
I found the book to be very unrealistic and there were parts of it I didn't agree with at all, but if I quit being so critical and just look at it overall, it was an okay book. The four agreements are nice ideas I guess, and they're something that can be applied to your daily life to an extent, but to live by them completely seems really ridiculous imo.
What I mean is...
Okay like, the second agreement was what bothered me the most, I suppose. "Don't take anything personally" is the second agreement, and this really means don't take ANYTHING personally, whether it be positive or negative.

"It is not important to me what you think about me, and I don't take what you think personally. I don't take it personally when people say, 'Miguel, you are the best,' and I also don't take it personally when they say, 'Miguel, you are the worst.' I know that when you are happy you will tell me, 'Miguel, you are such an angel!' But, when you are mad at me you will say, 'Oh, Miguel, you are such a devil! You are so disgusting. How can you say those things?' Either way, it does not affect me because I know what I am. I don't have a need to be accepted. I don't have the need to have someone tell me, 'Miguel, you are doing so good!' or 'How dare you do that!'...

You may even tell me, 'Miguel, what you are saying is hurting me.' But it is not what I am saying that is hurting you; it is that you have wounds that I touch by what I have said. You are hurting yourself. There is no way I can take this personally."

I cannot possibly agree with such a way of thinking! Firstly, humans all desire to be accepted, so yes, both praise and criticism will affect me at least a LITTLE. It is impossible for it to have absolutely no effect on me, and I do not want to be that indifferent to the opinions of those around me in the first place!
And to say that what I am saying is not hurting the person I am speaking to, it is that person hurting himself, that is absolutely ridiculous. If I insult someone, it is MY words that have hurt them. Such a way of thinking is almost like not taking responsibility for your words/actions, is it not?
So yes, that chapter bothered me quite a bit... but the rest of the book wasn't too horrible. Some of it was really good, some of it was really bad.
My next assignment is Ishmael by Daniel Quinn but I have to wait for it to arrive in the mail... I hope I will like this book a bit better than my previous assignment :(

this is me procrastinating on f13.

I think Shadow tends to look kinda scary in some of my drawings lmfao :( Kinda funny since he's super nice.

aand my other two drawings are Tegaki doodles.


Of all things, why did I have to make Trois a butterfly demon? I hate drawing butterflies! Hahaha...


Aah.. It's a bit rare for me to do a CLAMP fanart, haha. Subaru from Tokyo Babylon.
Tokyo Babylon is my favorite series by CLAMP, but at the same time I completely hate it because the last volume made me cryyyy ;__; oh god it was so sad. I had a feeling the series was going to end badly, but dang, that was like... really bad. I almost have to applaud CLAMP for being able to be that damn cruel to their characters lmfao D8 I get too attached to my characters to do something like that to them.

hair cut

Audrey's new hair cut is so so cute. It was a little painful for me to watch all of her hair get cut off (LOL JEEZ don't take me with you to get your hair cut, I cringe every time the stylist chops off a chunk of hair) but omgomg it's such a good hair style for her *v*
lmfao god I was getting so annoyed while I was waiting though. You guys all know how much I absofuckinglutely hate kids, right? Okay so first there was this little girl who kept opening the front door. Fine whatever I don't care if she's standing there like an idiot opening and shutting the door a bunch, but every time someone opened the door, it'd make this ringing sound to announce that someone had just entered. So she kept opening it over and over and over and over to make the ringing sound and I was about to lose my mind oh my GOD why didn't her mother tell her to knock that off.
And then.. in the waiting area, there was a table with cookies and coffee. There was a little boy and his dad sitting near me in the area, and LOL the second the boy's dad leaves to go get his hair cut, the kid runs to the refreshment table and starts fucking INHALING the cookies. HOLY SHIT DUDE I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS POSSIBLE TO EAT COOKIES THAT FAST. I was sitting there with Audrey's friend and both of our jaws dropped. It was like, the grossest thing to watch lmfaooo.
then he started messing with the remote and nearly broke the TV that was in the waiting area :<... I think the secretary was pretty pissed off at him at that point ahaha.
SO YEAH that was my exciting trip to the hair salon.

As for art, all I have is the Shadow Tegaki drawing that didn't work out lmao :( sryy.

I didn't finish the fur on his hood since I knew this picture wasn't turning out how I wanted, hahaha...
I submitted it onto Tegaki with the intention of deleting it shortly after posting it (I just wanted to save it) but it ended up getting comments? lmao D8 so I wound up not deleting it... even though I don't like it... :(

cure

Welllll I considered switching to a different blog, but I decided against it. Even if this site does lack entry cuts (and chops off the edge of my pictures if they're too big horizontally...), I kinda like it here :<

Blahh yesterday ended up being kind of a rough day because my older sister decided to call and I guess she's going to call to talk to me once a week for thirty minutes and discuss ways to "correct" my social disorder.
:| I'd rather have a sister than a therapist but whatever.
I wish I could speak my mind to her a little more, and I wish I weren't so bad with words so I could word what I'm thinking in a way that she would understand.
I'm so damn tired of people trying to fix me. Everyone is so fucking determined to be the hero and cure me.
It doesn't work that way, and I never asked for anyone's help to begin with.
I wish my family would just love me the way I am and not always be trying to change me. I can't ever have a conversation with any of them without it reverting back to what a social fuck-up I am. Why can't we talk about something else? Why can't we talk about books or the weather or whatthefuckever just something other than me being a screw-up. I have to live with it every day of my life, I already KNOW how messed up I am. I don't need other people constantly reminding me; it just brings my already ridiculously low self-esteem level down that much more.
Whatever I'm tired. I wish my family would just leave me the hell alone.

tegaki art...

to match the Sugar one. I kinda wanted to make a Shadow one too but I think I've spammed my blog with SH art enough for now, haha.

aggh!

Why are irl friends such a fucking pain in the ass?
Youknowwho seems to be trying to be friends with me again. Like, okay, where did that come from? Don't go months without talking to me and then suddenly try to be bffs again :| It's confusing and fucking weird.
I know all that drama and shit will start up again if I cave and become friends with her again, so I really don't want to, but I sound like a total bitch if she keeps making attempts at talking to me and I just ignore her...
At the same time, she kept ignoring me back when we were still friends, and that was a lot worse since we weren't even in an argument at the time, so she had no reason to ignore me. At least I have a reason :|
Siiiiigh why did all of this have to happennnn. I so wish I could just be like "okay I forgive you let's be friends again!" and everything go back to the way it was before all this ridiculous drama started. I miss my best friend :(
I know she's not the same person she was then though, so it's useless to keep wishing for things to go back to the way they were. I'm moving on, and she needs to as well.

okayOKAY enough of that. (BLOGGER WHY DON'T YOU HAVE ENTRY CUTS SO I CAN CUT THESE WHINY POSTS DAMMITTTTT.)
tegaki againn

Ahaha he looks so young.
If you're wondering what's with the sudden overflow of Sugar High art, it's because I started redrawing SH a week or so ago hahaha. I dunno if I'll ever post the comic online or not. We'll see, I guess :< This story is way more fun to draw than any of my other comics I've done because it's not so damn serious all the time. The characters actually smile once in a while and stuff LOL. God, with all my other comics it's just either lots of blood or lots of angst. No wonder I get sick of working on them D8
I did start drawing out Three as well, which is totally the opposite of SH since it's a super serious story (I hate serious shit why are all my stories so serious dfldkfjldjf) but it's still kinda fun because I like drawing Trois :<

edit: I really don't want to relocate but this lack of an entry cut option is starting to get on my nerves. if any of you guys happen to know of blog sites that have entry cuts besides LiveJournal, can you please suggest them to me?
I doubt I'm going to move to a different blog but I just wanna know my options.

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Sugar High doodlesss...
I think I've procrastinated long enough on drawing Shadow, so he's on here too.

A LOVE TRIANGLE? That's a little unlike me lmfao.
Character on the left is Shadow, and then from top to bottom it's Shadow & Lala, Lala & Sugar, Lala, and Sugar. :< (I went ahead and shortened Sugar's hair a little.)
I think Shadow's more commonly a dog name than a cat name, but Shadow is indeed a cat. I named him years ago 8( I think I would have come up with a more cat-like name if I were to name him now, haha.

ughh I need to go do the dishes D:...

C:

Drawings are from an oc session with Nimji yesterday. I'm linking to them because most of them are pretty boring. ):

Isamu. P: I should draw him more often...

Jae. I only drew the face in the oc session, actually... I finished the rest of the drawing today because it was giving me trouble yesterday.
I'd kind of like to see him with his hair down LOL. it's so longg..

P4 Main/Souji. boring drawing.

Trois. Aaah, he looks so serious! Perhaps I should start drawing him with Hero, because he's never nearly so serious when Hero is around, haha.

Lala. A colored picture, yaay! Lala's not nearly as fun when he's not in color though, thanks to that pink hair ahaha.
I swear, he blushes more than any other seme I've ever seen in my life :(

Sugar. I'm thinking about giving him a haircut :<... like, a pretty drastic one. I dunnooo...
There's a third character from Sugar High that I don't think I've ever posted a drawing of before D8; I guess I should do that soon lmao. I haven't drawn him in years, though...

There are a few more drawings I did, but they weren't good enough to post, so... :<

Anywaay, I'm in a pretty good mood today! I've been really bummed lately, so it feels awesome to be having a nice day, haha. I don't even have a reason for feeling better today; I just do.

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Almost done with NaNoWriMo :)

Did some doodles while riding around in the car with Dad. I'm not very good at drawing while in the car, aah.

(bigger version = here if you feel the need to read the little memos next to the drawings lol.)
I really should quit drawing on lined paper because the lines are a little ugly, but my lineless sketchbook is hardcover, so it's really heavy and a pain to drag around :(
oh yeah, I decided on Silas as the name for the kid that the twins hang around with. I was originally going to call him Shiloh but then I remembered that stupid movie or book or whatever it was about that dog named Shiloh and I decided against it hahaha.
I used to know this kid named Silas and I've kind of like the name ever since, so it works.

24 hours.

I'm not allowed to criticize myself for 24 hours starting tomorrow. Sooo if any of you who read this talk to me tomorrow and you catch me criticizing myself, feel free to lecture me, hahaha.
(This is obviously part of my self esteem improvement.)




Sugar. wtf why do I like catboys so much lmao

SUCCESS.

Audrey got her Kankuro costume and it's sooo awesomeee. <3 We'll take pictures at the convention. [not taking them now because it's not the same without the makeup, which we're not using until the con.]

oc stuff but I'm linking because some of them are kind of big.
Ren.
Seventeen and Sirge. Nimi said I never mentioned this, but Seventeen never calls Sirge anything but "Doctor" XD
Lala.
Faen. Didn't finish it so I'm not sure if you can tell what the hell is going on D8;

alriight.

I was in an oc session for like forever but couldn't draw hardly anything grahhh. so frustrating.


finished the second G.U.+ so I felt like drawing Endrance. Holy shit Endrance was kind of psycho in the manga hahaha. So was Haseo, but he was kind of like that in the games too.
I really don't like G.U.+ though lmao... I don't really understand why they made it so different from the game. Like what was the point in making Shino an Epitaph User instead of Atoli? And if Epitaph Users keep falling into a coma like they are... doesn't that defeat the whole purpose of G.U. where everyone was supposed to fight together as a team? I dunno :(... I just don't really dig it.
I like the art though :D

sugar and lala arguing or something
never finished it ahrahh.
I usually draw them so happy together, but I imagine they probably don't get along all that well a lot of the time since their personalities clash pretty terribly hahah.


done on MB... just Valence's left to go.

doodlespam yeeah

networked with Nimi and Emiro alriight :D

mutant aummy flying a kite and getting ready to fall down some stairs. :D
Crappy Valence... I'm trying to learn how to draw him, please bear with my bad doodles T_T
Raye with an umbrella? [it's raining here again lol D8]
Lala and Sugar.

out of character

Last night, Dad got really mad at me because I wouldn't go get him fast food. At 12:30 in the morning. Like, was it really that weird for me to say no to getting out at such a weird time? I mean, if HE was so against getting out, what on earth made him think I would want to do it?
He was fucking pissed though. He was even scaring Audrey :(
But this morning, he apologized.
Whoa.
My father, the man who is always right and has zero flaws, apologized and said it was his fault.
He continued with something about how I've been really great lately and he shouldn't have gotten angry with me.
Aaaah whaaaat I didn't know what to saaay... He never admits he was wrong. I was like, "I- er- uh- w-wh... o-okay..."
lmfao :( I was really confused.

Aaaanyway. I finished the picture of Raye. [Yeeah! Autumn finished something!]

[click the preview thing. it's kind of a big picture.]
It's pretty poorly done but I had fun coloring it anyway D8

aand another WIP holy crap. why do I keep starting so many pictures jeez D8 *really really really needs to update F13 instead*

this one's really going to be more of a doodle than a finished picture though :<